i think i was going a little crazy the last few days because ive not been exercising as much tbh. i need to start ensuring my 10k steps again but that lowkey takes too long so i might start jogging.
should be on track to finish chapter 4 tomorrow. idk why i was spending so much time doing repetitive easier questions either… i’m getting into the groove of things though and the first
10-ish chapters i should be able to breeze through as i remember stuff from before.
flesh maintenance is going to kill me. i hate maintenance. i genuinely want to buzz my head again.
today i did not have my daily matcha latte and was considerably more distractible and had to take NAP on a rock hard exam table… i resorted to using food, sugar, and pushups to try to focus more on finishing problems. but i actually feel more generally level-headed and aware when unmedicated, self- or otherwise.
idk if i'm going to buzz my head or wait until thanksgiving and to get it cut. ever since i bleached my hair in august my product list has gotten so long; i really would rather just have one shampoo and have that be it. the ultimate ideal would be to have a buzzed head and wear hats to only need a body wash. guys have it so good i stg. i mean i like having a sort of canvas to play around with too with longer hair but i don’t do that often enough to justify it tbh. with toning shampoo i get the ends of the balayage to be a silver color which blends naturally into black and if i sleep in a loose ponytail or bun i’ll wake up with waves—and that’s all great; but is the length really worth it if i'm planning on crutching on non-social aspects to live… when i'm dead tired is not a good time to be making decisions like this
i kind of want to keep learning cpp
might try to spend some time at the beach tomorrow but it will depend on how productive i feel like i can be there.
need to just go on a jog every time i feel like venting on here.
sleep well.
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signing off,
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